It doesnt haunt me anymore

I am glad that no, the past doesnt really haunt me anymore. I dont really miss it anymore. It doesnt occupy my mind and spoil my day anymore. It doesnt bother me anymore. I am happy to say i am freed from it. I certainly got more things to fret now since school's starting soon . I'm really exultant to let go of it (:

I have changed. I dont really text anyone anymore. I have become quieter sometimes which contradicts to my chatty nature. Sometime only. I seemed to lost my direction in life. I feel that i lost my goal in life , as in idk what should i look forward now. This is when your everything becomes nothing. I need sometime to get back on track.

Say it if you think you can do it, if not why say it? Cause i trusted you so much,so much. Then you had to do this. This is not a really big matter but it does really spoil the trust and all that built in you with replacement of disappointment.That's why people say,we have to learn to be independent all times. Cause sometime, the people you think you could be dependent on are no longer the ones you could be dependent on. I was supposed to blog yesterday but i was really hell damn beat ah.

Drenched in guilt and sadness

As the title suggests , that's what im feeling right now. I really dont know. Perhaps it's me just me. I express opposite of what i feel, of what i want. I know, this must have been what you fucking hate of me. HAHA . I swear thinking of it do really make me feel very very bad. Just bear in mind that i do return your ..........

Shopping with my bestf. HEHE . Got a shorts from f21. Only ONE:( While i was trying out the shorts , rp called me, mentioning that i have a camp on this wed for my course. I needa reach rp at 0830. It will end at 6. OMG . LOL. Did i even sign up for it? I gonna be lonely cause my friends from other course not going. SIAN TTM . Hope it turns out fine , if not fun. Quite worried bout meeting new people in a new environment though. Hope it dont feels as ALIEN as it was while working in riverside. HEHE

With freedom comes boredom

Looking at the date I only have like officially ten more days of freedom before orientation actually starts on the 13th of april. That's why job i quited my job on the 31st of March. And the pay immediately rise on the next day!!! @#$#$$^$^& I didnt expect that i could actually last in this job for months. Anyway, I quitted my job to enjoy life. HEHE . AndAnd Im now blogging from my white ASUS laptop, WHITE <3 ! I really though i had no fate with white laptop. Thanks to that stupid guy who saved a display set for me. He promised a new unit -.- With my nature, i wouldnt possibly purchase anything there already! So, i proceeded elsewhere and found my white laptop! And you know what, i bought this laptop on Sunday, 27 march! A veryvery special date! ;D

"if"

I dont want to reveal so much. I just want to say if time could rewind i would have done some things and not done some things.

Changes are inevitable

This time of my life is hell damn sucky now. Everything is changing. People around me changed too.Even HE , HE changed too. I have distanced from quite a few , namely three now. We all no longer talk, no longer text , no longer share things with each other , no longer laugh together. And i think i kind of lost my bestf. I am not sure too. Or it's that she changed too. I know i lost someone too. I said I wanna forget everything but i didnt do it. I am hoping those words and memories would become vague but till now they are still so vivid, bugging me daily.

Hi 1st March, I wanna see 5th March soon!
I posted a lot of posts in one shot. Cause i happen to have a com today. Did i mention i want a white laptop for school. If not i want something that is not black. JJ's I AM concert ya. This coming saturday! I already have in mind what i wanna wear!!! Yay yay yay, can see him soon !!! ♥♥♥